英语翻译不知道从什么时候起,独立这个词语似乎开始远离我的形象,很多时候都从心底希望有人陪伴,可是每个人的人生都需要独自支撑,很多路是要靠自己一步一步的去探索,不喜欢自己的改

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英语翻译
不知道从什么时候起,独立这个词语似乎开始远离我的形象,很多时候都从心底希望有人陪伴,可是每个人的人生都需要独自支撑,很多路是要靠自己一步一步的去探索,不喜欢自己的改变,似乎是为了迎合世界所做的不情愿的改变,也或者是为了让世界容纳我这个一直飘荡的灵魂.
最近明显感觉到了自己的变化,几年前我最怕的事情就是改变,可是改变却在不知不觉,当我回首过去发现一切的时候首先的感觉是无助,我被自己抛弃了,抛在了自己不知道的迷宫,再也回不去的时候的恐惧溢满周围的空气.想要得到一些东西的时候我们必须放弃另外的一些东西,虽然这是亘古不变的道理,我只是计算不出这两者的交换对我来说是否值得,如果不值得.如果值得 .似乎都已经无法改变一切.向前看看不到出路,回头已经没有来时的路,正因为如此,每个人才乐此不疲的为自己的人生奔波吧.
一个人去了和平公园,安静的思考的地方就是逃离一切熟悉的东西的时候,看到你的世界以外的东西的时候,你才会明白自己的生活狭隘之处,目标所在.只有站在迷宫的上方才会发现最近的出口.简单的逃离,短暂的躲避可以让我看到另外的天地.公园不大,却足够装下我所有的思考,想家,想家人,想自己,想朋友,没有边界的思考却总也跳不出自己堪称琐碎的生活.结果是自己很多事情太擅长逃避,逃不掉的逃避只会让自己不会陷入现实的尴尬,却在心里筑起一个一个的漩涡,任由心被绞碎,被摧毁.也许该学习解决掉每个问题,哪怕是陷入困境,而不是仅仅折磨内心.这或许就是勇敢,真正的出于内心世界的勇敢.

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Not knowing from when, the word "Independence" is getting far from me. There are many times when I want some company. But one should stand on his own to survive his life. One should explore his route of life all by himself. I don't like the changes taking place within me, because all the chanegs are meant to cater to the world unwillingly. Maybe it is also made to let the world accept my floating soul.
Recently I can feel my changes clearly. Several years ago, the thing I am most afraid of is Change. But changes are everywhere. When I look back, the first thing I feel is helplessness. I am abandoned by myself in a strange maze. When i discovered I can't go back to old days I d=found i am surrounded by fear. It is an old saying that if we want to get something, we must first give up something. But i just don't know whether the exchange is worth it. No matter if it is worth it or not, i can not change a single thing.There is no future and there is no past. I think that's why everyone is busy on the run.
I went ot HePing Park alone where I can think alone and quietly. Only when you escape from the familiar things can you see the world in a more clear way and get to know that your life is so illiberal and narrow and find the goal of your life. Only when you stand above the maze can you find the exit easily. Short escape and avoidence can show me a diffierent world. The park is not big but big enough to carry all my thoughts. I miss my family, my friends and myself. Boundless thougts are always boudned to trifles. The result is that I am too good at escaping from things. The unavoidable escapes can only prevent me from falling into weird truth while forming vortex one after another. My heart is being tortured and destroyed. Maybe I should learn to solve problems depite the fact that i may fall into troubles, rather can torture my heart. Maybe this is what courage is about. This is the real courage coming out of my heart.
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